Called?

Driving home from WFX as I have said in so many posts, I longed to change the world. I have been struggling for several years with God’s call on my life. There have been times when I have felt him calling me into a different ministry, one that until today, scared me to death. I felt him calling me to teach and preach the good news. I heard him  saying I have created you with passion for a reason, use it to bring me glory!

 I remember the first time I told a  pastor about this call and I got the awkward look, as if to say, are you sure? I finally told my husband on our last day of the conference as I knew God had used events of that week to make this even more evident in my life. That day  we commited to pray for discernment. On the drive home that night while talking with God I knew that I would eventually have to stand up and preach before I could ever affirm His call on my life But, I never realized how quickly it all would happen. By Tuesday of this past week I was asked to preach this weekend. This morning was the first time I ever stood in front of a congregation and shared a message that God laid on my heart. The reactions to this message were indescribable. I have never looked into so many faces before, faces of genuine thanks and faces that long to hear God’s word taught with conviction. I spoke with more people today about how God is moving in their lives and it was phenominal.  I saw more tears than I have in a long time, tears of longing for Christ and realizing that we will never make it on our own. I realized by the end of the  last service that I could not remember what I said just 10 minutes ago. I had been completely surrendered to God and He used my words and actions to bring his message. Things came out in me that I did not even know existed.

Walking into church this morning, there were a  couple people I longed for reactions from but I never imagined how God would use me to reach so many.  God is soooo good. To be willing to use someone like me to bring his message. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel ready to say yes to this calling but I know that God is opening doors for a reason and that as long as I stay surrendered and obedient to him, he will tell me when the time is right. Speaking this morning surrendered to the holy spirit was one of the best experiences of my life! I am grateful to have had this opportunity. It was life changing!